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7/6th - 2010 - Visit the gallery
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June 30th - Conversations
Can I feel it with my mind ?
One can only feel , if it stings.
May I touch it , just this one time ?
If theres no complaint about what that brings.
When have you ever felt this alive ?
I`ve nothing to compare it too , I`ve been so dead.
Do you consider that a moral blight ?
If ethics are contagious and easily spread.
Is what I`m spewing , all nonsense ?
You are overfilled with it , its only fair.
Does what I ask cause you offense ?
If it did , I really wouldn`t care.
Can you see that I`m not crazy ? Don`t you understand my
You should know that you can`t faze me , because I know
that we`re just dreaming.
Jan 2010 Journal Entry - --yaay!!!!!!!!!
- It is not technically the beginning of a
new Decade but I like to stubbornly refuse to acknowledge
that detail. You`ll see from the blog around this day that
the new year hasn`t started very well , and I didn`t mention
the typical after holiday seasonal downswing at work which
always makes me tense. I feel like I can`t win ...its maniacally
busy and crazy during the fall causing me stress and then
its ridiculously slow and unprofitable during the winter
causing me stress.
BUT....despite the crappy start ...I intend
to remain positive. This is the beginning of the decade
(if this year sucks , I`ll say 2011 is the beginning of
the decade as it truly is) and I intend to improve on last
Lori and I have done well by staying active
, eating properly , and going to the gym 4-5 days a week.
We did a lot of hiking , kayaking and even snoe shoeing
2008 I quit smoking - 2009 - lost 35 lbs
2010 and forward ...we intend to do more of
the same and plan on trying out some cross country skiing.
My codeword for personal improvement is ACTIVE. ...
Stay Active - that means physically and mentally.
Lori and I also intend to ACTIVELY pursue friendships both
new and cultivate existing ones. I think as a self-sufficient
couple we get ourselves in a rut where we begin to lose
touch with outside potentially positive influences. We are
actively going to change that.
We have been pretty good at staying active
on the weekends , either locally or planning some weekends
away (usually new england). I want to be active during the
week this year. We tend to stay home alot during the week.
Even little things like going out for starbucks and reading
to stay active.We started doing a date-night , once a week
and mostly have done things like a movie , out to eat etc;
If we run errands , that would be fine too. I get into these
ruts where my car must immediately drive home after work
and I must immediately take of my shoes. I do not do that
on the weekend. I am going to actively change that habit.
Lori and I do pretty well passing time constructively
, she has been scrapbooking again , keeping up with the
house etc; I have my website , journals , occasional writing
, and lots of reading and studying. I need to continue that.
With the DVR we got this past year , I am not a slave to
the TV , and have been and want to continue squeezing a
little TV in a short compact amount of time. I get depressed
when I spend an entire evening flipping channels. I haven`t
helped around the house much this past year and plan on
doing a better job of it this year instead of blaming Lori
for a messy house. If I do some more consistent straightening
, it will make things easier for Lori to do the actual Cleaning
part without feeling overwhelmed.
I also MUST MUST - actively pursue happiness
and contentment. I still am off the wall half the time ,
between temper tantrums , fits of rage , depression , bouts
of dark and pessimistic moods and the occasional MANIC or
get crazy and drown myself in liquor modes. I have done
a little better the last few years and have even used the
power of Positive Thinking by convincing myself that the
holidays are good , and the fall is good. For a long time
I have complained about the Fall due to work stress and
haven`t enjoyed the season properly. Fall is a wonderful
time of year , especially for active hikers , outdoorsy
hangers , geocachers . fish catchers, kayakers and scenic
drivers like us.
This year , I found many good moments during the fall ,
almost simply by repeating , I really Like the Fall and
making it true thru habit. I did the same with the xmas
and new years holidays with a more limited success but a
major improvement of past years , where statements such
as I Hate Xmas came out of my mouth a few hundred times
in one month. Funny , what a little will power and mind
over matter , and postive thinking can do.
I hope noone is actually reading this , coz
its really just a personal journal for me, and even I`m
bored with it , but I must trudge on. I must continue to
remind myself of these goals throughout the year and Decade.
I have electronic phone reminders lined up
for 3/15 6/15 9/15 to renew our new years vows of ACTIVE.
This little trick has worked the last few years to get me
back on track when I start slipping after a few months ,
forgetting how important my goals were at the time I created
them. On those reminders are lists that give me ideas on
how to achieve all these things. I`m not listing them here
, coz their a bit corny and personal , even more-so than
this little journal right here.
Many people this time of year , intend to
make positive changes in their life , sometimes I feel that
people put unreachable goals out in front of them , and
when they ineviteably fail , stop trying altogether. I think
the last 2 years , I have done pretty well sticking to my
plans and not shooting the moon with my expectations.
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, make fun of someone , say something constructive , start
a discussion , Start a Fight , Introduce yourself , Make
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